I rage at death for taking her far too soon,

for leaving me alone without her touch, her voice, the shelter of her arms.

The way only a Mother can comfort.

20 days have passed

seemingly small in comparison to 45 years

and yet each moment of those 20 days

seems in itself a lifetime

and the 45 years

but a flash.

On August 4th. My Mother passed away, my heart and soul are aching, longing for her.

Mother of my birth, for how long were we together
in your love and my adoration of your self?
For the shadow of a moment as I breathed your pain
and you breathed my suffering. As we knew
of shadows in lit rooms that would swallow the light.

Your face beneath the oxygen tent was alive
but your eyes were closed. Your breathing hoarse
Your sleep was with death. I was alone with you
as it was when I was young but now only alone,
not with you. to become alone forever,
as I was learning, watching you become alone.

Earth is your mother as you were mine, my earth,
my sustenance, and my strength
and now without you I turn to your mother
and seek from her that I may meet you again
in rock and stone: whisper to the stone,
I love you; whisper to the rock, I found you;
whisper to earth, Mother, I have found her
and I am safe and always have been.

~ David Ignatow ~

(New and Collected Poems 1970-1985)

Ok I know most of you have probably heard of this book, but still I think it's worth a mention. This book is so chock full of info and practical advice. It is by far the most comprehensive book I have come across so far.

The Complete Idiot's Guide to Wicca and Witchcraft, 3rd Edition by Denise Zimmermann and Katherine A. Gleason

I had checked it out from the library and then went to Barnes and Noble to purchase it. I also purchased a ledger for my BOS and a divination set.

Being new to Wicca, I am reading almost everything I can get my hands on, and this book is one I will have use of again and again.

Also I thought I would share this link. We all know how expensive oils are, but this site provides you with instructions for making your own.

http://www.moonsmusings.com/pagan/oils.html

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

I had a very surprising but positive experience tonight, and I thought I would share.

I was playing on a game site and there was a young woman who had just learned she had stage 3 breast cancer. My heart immediately went out to her. I told her I would pray to the Goddess on her behalf if she would like. She asked me what I meant, so I explained. The room was instantly silent. After a Minute a player who was there also a pastor at a Christian church spoke up and here is what he said....

" Kista that is wonderful of you, all prayers count. It is not our place to peer into others souls, your path is the one that feels right for you."

Again a few moments of silence, and then chat returned to what it was and a few even asked me some questions. The woman who is ill, announced she was going to bed, and as she was leaving...."Thank you everyone for your thoughts and support...and Kista I don't know your Goddess, but please ask for her blessings."

So that was my warm fuzzy for the day. As I said I just thought I would share.

Warmest Blessings to all.